Lifeless

People might be feeling they are so attractive when everyone look at them wherever they are. People might be feeling they so special when every boys or girls like them. I'm a human and indeed i feel what people feel. But for me, they are nothing compare to friend. I could feel lifeless when i don't have close friend nor a friend. Actually, i thought that i have many friends in this world but in fact, i don't have them. I feel hurt when she was giving the plates to all of them but not me when i'm just beside them. I don't take it serious because i'm still full. She wrote everyone's name for the magazine and give to them. I was waiting for my turn but the magazine that she hold left only for herself. I decided to go and take for myself and realized my name was not in the list. How sad and hurt. Now, i could feel how aqilah's feeling when nobody don't bother her. I was wondering if i did silly to them and i'm so sorry for that. I was also wondering, would i have friends when i am at matrix or university? I hope, they will realize and feel sorry to me. :'(