Because i miss you

I can feel my blood rushing on my face whenever i saw his IM said, "hye awak yang dirindui". I was blur and don't know what to do. My heartbeat turns faster than before and i just can't controlled it. Should I reply? Why not? I was thinking and wondering why he must did that and why don't he just get out of life. The time when i  forgotten him, he came back and for what reason? I act cool and just replied his messages. This night, i saw he posted a song by Korean singer title 'because i miss you'. I read all over the lyrics and i feel it is pointing to me but at the same time i guess it must be for his girlfriend. I am not that so sad anymore indeed I feel happy for his behalf. He could get everything he didn't get when he was with me. It just myself. Sometimes, i feel like losing him, i lost everything. I don't have my friends beside me and i miss that a lot. I wish I have all of them during my 17 together celebrate and i could feel how appreciate they are to me.