Lifeless

People might be feeling they are so attractive when everyone look at them wherever they are. People might be feeling they so special when every boys or girls like them. I'm a human and indeed i feel what people feel. But for me, they are nothing compare to friend. I could feel lifeless when i don't have close friend nor a friend. Actually, i thought that i have many friends in this world but in fact, i don't have them. I feel hurt when she was giving the plates to all of them but not me when i'm just beside them. I don't take it serious because i'm still full. She wrote everyone's name for the magazine and give to them. I was waiting for my turn but the magazine that she hold left only for herself. I decided to go and take for myself and realized my name was not in the list. How sad and hurt. Now, i could feel how aqilah's feeling when nobody don't bother her. I was wondering if i did silly to them and i'm so sorry for that. I was also wondering, would i have friends when i am at matrix or university? I hope, they will realize and feel sorry to me. :'(

You, yourself

It is the first time i'm crying because of you. It shows that i really tired of all this and i can't stand for it anymore. I really don't know what is actually happening between us but i feel unsatisfied with everything especially the way you treat me. Am i wrong treat you different from your friend? Fine i will treat both of you equally with heartless. I was rude to you but its really hard and yet hurts me. I don't know why i have to waste my tears for you in fact i know that it is worthless. You are the guy who came after him and you really wipe my tears. I like you nazreen but i know you didn't. I can accept it but please at least make me feel paradise whenever me with you and not make me feel hurt. If you didn't like me, you should not show it. I just can't understand with guys who like to give hope to girl. Herghh!!

To my dearest friend

I realize that i treat you different from your friend just after you told me. I shouldn't do that to you if there is no reason but in fact i have a reason which is i like you. I just can't understand why i like you when you are not. I find myself is hard to understand. Maybe it is easy for me to fall in like with someone but it is hard to know the reason why. Sometimes, it is embarrassing when you tell the truth but it is good to solve problems and the hows and whys.
          Dear someone, i'm sorry if the way i treat you make you feel uncomfortable, hate me and etc. I won't do that anymore cause i find it embarrassed myself but i hope you know why i did that before. Lastly, i will start to treat you like i treat my FRIEND.